...the winds of change...

With Andy suffering from yet another cold, we postponed our Valentine's date and stayed inside, snuggled by the fire, watching a romantic classic: You've Got Mail. Did anyone else have AOL? We giggled (well, I giggled, he chuckled) at all that has changed in the past 16 years since the movie's release. Can you believe it's been 16 years?!

There is some change that is wonderful, and some that is not. When I think back on who I was 16 years ago, insecure, timid, lacking self respect, I'm so thankful that I have changed.

Even in the past month I have changed. I've had less time to watch shows and movies, but I've somehow had more time to talk with people. I've gotten less sleep, but I've become more driven and passionate. I am less concerned about what people think of me, and more concerned about how I am loving those people.

Yesterday I saw a Mexican family walking on the side of a snowy road in the freezing cold and offered them a ride. It was strange and awkward, and the entire time I wondered if I had made a huge mistake, but it ended up working out just fine. I'm not seeking to brag, I only want to make it clear that I wouldn't have done this a month ago. I have changed.

Last year I was a happy homebody. Now, I want to explore and experience and pour myself into others until there is nothing left of me. I lay awake at night and think about what I will do, or where I will go, or who I can love on. I have become insatiable for running out into the wild open air and throwing caution to the wind. Me, the homebody.

What changes have you seen in yourself this year?  What changes are you seeking to make?