Several years ago I bought this advent wreath in the hopes of using it as a way to draw closer to God during the holiday season. This was the first year I took it out of the box. I've got good intentions, but my follow through needs work.I found some daily scriptures on Pinterest, and so Andy and I have been spending a bit of time together remembering why we celebrate Christmas. Some days we end up doing a few at a time, since we tend to forget as it's not a habit, but I'm glad we've started this new tradition, nonetheless.
Truthfully, my faith over the past few years has not been the fire that it once was. Struggling with all this personal turmoil, it has been difficult to know how to approach God. Most people run to God in their time of need, I tend to hide, wanting to work out all the issues and then present them to him neatly packaged. I know that's not how it works...
As I'm faced with this new chapter of being a mom, I'm terrified, and I've been driven to my knees more than once over the past few months. Prayers that this one will survive. Prayers that I can be a patient, loving, and selfless parent. Prayers that my baby will love God. Prayers that my child won't die.
I wonder if Mary had any of these thoughts as she carried her own child.
With each passing day, I feel less in control, and it's been causing me to turn to the only one I know who can provide a peace that passes understanding.
Which was probably his plan all along...
Where are you in your relationship with God today?
I wonder if Mary had any of these thoughts as she carried her own child.
With each passing day, I feel less in control, and it's been causing me to turn to the only one I know who can provide a peace that passes understanding.
Which was probably his plan all along...
Where are you in your relationship with God today?
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