That's how I've felt this week. So I
resorted to my old ways and hid in my house, daydreaming of
adventure, but unwilling to step into it. I'm not sure why...
In spite of all your encouragement and
kind words, I continue to put pressure on myself to have the most
amazing adventures and then write something profound about each of
them. As days go by, I began to wonder if my words mattered, if they
were changing anything for the better.
Then, this happened:
Today, Andy texted me as I was getting
my hair done and told me he had made granola bars. Do you remember
the great granola bar debacle of 2014, here and here? Well,
Andy decided that he would step out of his comfort zone and attempt
to make granola bars, all on his own. And they taste absolutely
delicious! I'm so proud that he took a risk and tried something so
new to him! But the best part was seeing how pleased he was with his
success! He's now a bit braver because of his adventure.
Many of my friends now speak in terms
of “adventures,” something I don't remember hearing many of them
say before. It's so much fun to see their pictures and hear their
stories. It makes me feel like we're taking this journey together,
like I'm not alone as I seek to make something out of each new day.
These simple things reminded me why I started my blog.
The word adventure may be misleading.
Not everything I do will be death-defying. (In fact, with Andy's
birthday swiftly approaching, he's wanting to go skydiving, and
though I desperately want to join him so that he can have a buddy, my
eyes instantly tear up at the thought. I'm not sure I'm ready for
that jump yet.)
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I recently read this quote:
“Your life is made of two dates and a
dash. Make the most of the dash.”
How are you making the most of the
dash?
Have I ever experienced paralyzing insecurity? In the course of my life more times than I care to admit. Sometimes fear is self imposed and unfounded, sometimes fear is our instincts trying to give us fair warning. As we grow older we become a little better at being honest with ourselves about which is which. Along the way we all have days when we hide out. It's ok.
ReplyDeleteDon't put undo pressure on yourself over this blog. Your doing a great job!. Just take it as it comes and when you have something to say I will be listening with great interest.
Congratulations to Andy on the granola. As for the skydiving... talk about paralyzing insecurity!!! I've never really been afraid of flying and I've often thought I might like to take a ride on a hot air balloon but the thought of jumping out of a plane scares me witless. I've gotten to the point in life where I know there are somethings I just can't bring self to do and that's ok.
Enjoy your weekend and give yourself a well deserved pat on the back for all your efforts with this blog. I assure your efforts are appreciated! xoxo
Thanks again for all the encouragement, Julia! I so appreciate your kind words.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking skydiving might not be in the cards for me, though I'm not ready to say for sure just yet. We've decided to hold off for a few weeks on the skydiving since it isn't supposed to be great weather here. We'll see if I muster up any more courage before then. A hot air balloon ride is on the list for this year!
Every year St. Louis holds the Great Forest Park Balloon Race. The night before they host an event called the balloon glow, where all the balloons are lit up and people can walk around and look at them. It's gets pretty hot, as it's in mid September with the fires filling the balloons, but it's pretty nonetheless. It also was my and Andy's first date back in 2009! ;)
Have a great week!